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Phil John Kneis:
ATMAN - PROSPECTS IV:
DE/ONTOLOGY
Berlin, October 25th, 2004 - P#279
there's some things you know
you know
you've been born
you know
you're going to die
well, do you?
I tell you, I knew
but still, for the greatest part of my life,
I grew up
being told
there's life after death
(whatever that means)
but see
even if you might believe
you still
don't know
maybe you want to believe
precisely because you don't know:
or maybe you want to believe
precisely because you do know:
the end is the end
believe in resurrection you?
have seen you ghosts?
have spoken they to you?
they haven't
and we very much know, those who claim to speak with ghosts
are liars all
or rather distorted
so even if there'd be life after this
you still couldn't continue
living
the life you built
believe in reincarnation you?
that you'd return, remembering, what you've been?
become a bear, a bird, a slug,
experience
what life they have?
sometimes I wonder
is it out of envy we wanna be a bird?
out of a sense of perverted justice
we wanna be able to return as a slug
to grant this opportunity to others, mainly
let Hitler be a cockroach
but maybe an otherwise innocent cockroach would return as a human?
but really,
do you remember a previous self?
I do not quite think so
and neither do you
that leaves the option for us to return to the stardust
we came from
reassembled then into other kinds of life
or matter:
but really
do you care for the sake of your proteins
or of your soul?
we cannot tolerate an ending
we need the afterlife
as meme
so all that we do know
is quite our mortality
all other points
though valid, perhaps, for the sake of the "soul"
just point to nothing
aim to fill
the emptiness with life:
so, just that you know,
I've arrived
quite recently
at a certain dilemma:
quite banal, for sure:
I won't be here for ever
and when I'm gone
I wouldn't even be able to care
so, should we care now?
and can we quite
though knowing, it won't be for us?
cos tell me, my dear:
there must have been a reason
to the invention of God
to the belief in a greater good:
to our programming
to at least, if we care about nothing,
our genes still care about themselves
(for when it all breaks down, there still is la familia)
the "noble" lie:
so here we go again?
is there not another way?
for I'm not quite ready
to accept a lie as truth
merely to make ends meet
but maybe it's just
one step at a time
and if we don't make it
nobody comes out alive, anyway
so here's the thing about Thomas Hobbes:
we all may hate him to be true
but still, that doesn't change the fact
that in the greater scheme of things,
it's not about what we want
it's about what we are
and what we aren't
or is it
'bout what could be
somewhere
over the rainbow?
October 25th/31st, 2004
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